Strange thing happened to me recently. I'd been feeling pretty bloody depressed. It had been making me angry, resentful and incredibly bitter about a long term relationship that had ended some months previously. For months I had felt extremely hard done by, and violently angry.
And then one day, I came home, put out the rubbish, walked in the door and decided to go evacuate my bowels, ie take a poo. I closed the lid, flushed and gazed out the window for a few minutes. I washed my hands and left the bathroom still feeling like unleashing hell upon the world. I went and sat at my desk, looked at the computer and felt the sun on my shoulder and across my face. After several minutes I became aware that for the most time in many months I felt completely peaceful.
It was as if a big scary menacing black dog had been living in my house for nine months, walking around behind me. And then all of sudden, I go to the toilet, have a poo, I come out and he’s disappeared. Gone without a trace. Incredible. Anger, embitterment, resent . . . after almost a whole year of solid intense hatred, it had vanished just like that. I don’t know how it happened, but I’m not sticking around to ask.
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